It's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile since I first saw you
And it's been awhile since I could stand on my own two feet again
And it's been awhile since I could call you
But everything I can't remember
As f***ed up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered I've stretched myself beyond my means
It's been awhile
Since I could say that I wasn't addicted
And it's been awhile since I could say I love myself as well
And it's been awhile since I've gone and f***ed things up just like I always do
And it's been awhile but all that s*** seems it disappear when I'm with you
But everything I can't remember
As f***ed up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered I've gone and f***ed things up again
Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day
It's been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
And it's been awhile since I said I'm sorry
And it's been awhile since I've seen the way the candle lights your face
And it's been awhile but I can still remember just the way you taste
But everything I can't remember
As f***ed up as it all may seem to be
I know it's me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me
It's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile since I said
I'm sorry
